Tonight, Tonight

"Time is never time at all
You can never ever leave without leaving a piece of youth
And our lives are forever changed
We will never be the same
The more you change the less you feel
Believe, believe in me, believe
That life can change, that you're not stuck in vain
We're not the same, we're different tonight
Tonight, so bright
Tonight
And you know you're never sure
But you're sure you could be right
If you held yourself up to the light
And the embers never fade in your city by the lake
The place where you were born
Believe, believe in me, believe
In the resolute urgency of now
And if you believe there's not a chance tonight
Tonight, so bright
Tonight
We'll crucify the insincere tonight
We'll make things right, we'll feel it all tonight
We'll find a way to offer up the night tonight
The indescribable moments of your life tonight
The impossible is possible tonight
Believe in me as I believe in you, tonight."
-Smashing Pumpkins

What was with tonight? That was so odd. I don't understand. I'm not going to really question it, but I will ponder it. Glad to be home where I can freak out both internally and externally.

I'm really nervous for this summer.
I'm scared that because I work so much I won't get to balance my three different groups of friends.
I'm scared that because in my free time I will be balancing these friends that I will miss out on truly bonding with all of them. I hate shallow experiences and I really want to make everything work out.

I can do this. I can focus for one more week

"Believe in me as I believe in you, tonight"