Okay
We are starting our second (third?) week of summer break and I am already a hot mess.
Today: Went to bed at 4am, woke up at 10.
It is now almost 2 o'clock and all I have done today is dance around to the new Gaga album (paws up everyone!) in my underwear (Can I call that working out?) and put on some mascara.
Unless of course we are counting the insane amount of blogging/tumbling I've been doing. Seriously, I've joined the tumblr world (about time, right?). It is addicting. Like I need another reason to stay up 'til all hours of the night.
If I don't have something to do I become the most unproductive person in the world.
Monday, May 23, 2011
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Tonight, Tonight
"Time is never time at all
You can never ever leave without leaving a piece of youth
And our lives are forever changed
We will never be the same
The more you change the less you feel
Believe, believe in me, believe
That life can change, that you're not stuck in vain
We're not the same, we're different tonight
Tonight, so bright
Tonight
And you know you're never sure
But you're sure you could be right
If you held yourself up to the light
And the embers never fade in your city by the lake
The place where you were born
Believe, believe in me, believe
In the resolute urgency of now
And if you believe there's not a chance tonight
Tonight, so bright
Tonight
We'll crucify the insincere tonight
We'll make things right, we'll feel it all tonight
We'll find a way to offer up the night tonight
The indescribable moments of your life tonight
The impossible is possible tonight
Believe in me as I believe in you, tonight."
-Smashing Pumpkins
What was with tonight? That was so odd. I don't understand. I'm not going to really question it, but I will ponder it. Glad to be home where I can freak out both internally and externally.
I'm really nervous for this summer.
I'm scared that because I work so much I won't get to balance my three different groups of friends.
I'm scared that because in my free time I will be balancing these friends that I will miss out on truly bonding with all of them. I hate shallow experiences and I really want to make everything work out.
I can do this. I can focus for one more week
"Believe in me as I believe in you, tonight"
You can never ever leave without leaving a piece of youth
And our lives are forever changed
We will never be the same
The more you change the less you feel
Believe, believe in me, believe
That life can change, that you're not stuck in vain
We're not the same, we're different tonight
Tonight, so bright
Tonight
And you know you're never sure
But you're sure you could be right
If you held yourself up to the light
And the embers never fade in your city by the lake
The place where you were born
Believe, believe in me, believe
In the resolute urgency of now
And if you believe there's not a chance tonight
Tonight, so bright
Tonight
We'll crucify the insincere tonight
We'll make things right, we'll feel it all tonight
We'll find a way to offer up the night tonight
The indescribable moments of your life tonight
The impossible is possible tonight
Believe in me as I believe in you, tonight."
-Smashing Pumpkins
What was with tonight? That was so odd. I don't understand. I'm not going to really question it, but I will ponder it. Glad to be home where I can freak out both internally and externally.
I'm really nervous for this summer.
I'm scared that because I work so much I won't get to balance my three different groups of friends.
I'm scared that because in my free time I will be balancing these friends that I will miss out on truly bonding with all of them. I hate shallow experiences and I really want to make everything work out.
I can do this. I can focus for one more week
"Believe in me as I believe in you, tonight"
Monday, May 2, 2011
Life is kind of wonderful at 3:10am
That's really all I need to say.
I took at walk around 1am and just walked around campus, blaring Florence+The Machine and simply marveling at how far I've come in my life. I am happy to be alive and happy to be successful. I may have my huge amounts of stress, and I may not handle it in the best ways, but I am truly proud of where I am in my life. I may have some confused thoughts about people in my life and where they stand, but who doesn't have those problems. I may want to ask those questions, but why mess with a good thing. I am so happy right now. It has hit me like a "bullet in the back". I wasn't expecting it, hell, I shouldn't be this happy. But I am. I am going to take it and run with it. Maybe it was the change of hair to allow a re-evaluation of myself, who knows. But whatever it is, I like it. Now I need to go finish the rest of my papers that are all due tomorrow at midnight.
"You always look so cool"
I took at walk around 1am and just walked around campus, blaring Florence+The Machine and simply marveling at how far I've come in my life. I am happy to be alive and happy to be successful. I may have my huge amounts of stress, and I may not handle it in the best ways, but I am truly proud of where I am in my life. I may have some confused thoughts about people in my life and where they stand, but who doesn't have those problems. I may want to ask those questions, but why mess with a good thing. I am so happy right now. It has hit me like a "bullet in the back". I wasn't expecting it, hell, I shouldn't be this happy. But I am. I am going to take it and run with it. Maybe it was the change of hair to allow a re-evaluation of myself, who knows. But whatever it is, I like it. Now I need to go finish the rest of my papers that are all due tomorrow at midnight.
"You always look so cool"
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